Forcing Positivity

Let's get real serious for a minute, I've been a bit all over the place for a while now. Up, down, left, any bloody direction... You name it. I've been trying my hardest to figure out how I feel, or how I should feel. With everyone's positivity coming into the new year, you kinda want that for yourself too. To be positive. To be happy. I'm not saying I'm unhappy at all, but there are certain moments where I don't feel so good, and I question why I do and what I can do to feel better. I guess we all do. This is where a few videos that I've watched recently come in, which kind of gave me a better outlook on how things really are.

The first video will be a shock to anyone who knows him, but Felix aka Pewdiepie made a video about how there's a lot of forced positivity on Youtube. He made a lot of good points which really helped me see things so differently. He mentioned how sometimes he doesn't feel okay, but that's okay with him. That we're only human to feel negative emotions and it seems unrealistic to be completely happy 24/7. This really did help me say to myself, you know what... I'm fine. I'm not always happy, I'm not always sad. But I am fine.

Which brings me to my next video, from Meghan who vlogged about how sometimes she falls into negative situations and how she plans to defeat her demons and turn it into something positive. She talked about writing things down that make her happy, that she loves doing, and so on. I honestly feel that writing down things for any situation can make me feel better instantly. Even for just that small moment. You can get a clearer idea of things if you write it down, instead of keeping it all inside your head. It's more motivating too. It's so easy to put things to the back of your mind and just forget about it momentarily, but planning things and writing them down definitely gets your brain working and helps to see things a little more clearly.

I'm hoping that I can take some advice here and hopefully stick to it, it's definitely refreshing to see people's outlook on these kinds of things. I'd love to know how you feel about it. Let me know? :)

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Another year older

After your adult years truly begin, each birthday feels no different from the next. Not 100% confirming I'm some sort of adult that has their shit together, but 22 is a pretty solid age for an adult (I think). How the hell did that happen? I'm pretty convinced I'm still the 14-year-old emo child that used to spend all her school money on gig tickets and shortbread biscuits. With my only worries being what colour skinny jeans I'd be wearing that day, everything did seem a lot simpler back then. I'm talking as if I'm an old age pensioner looking back on my younger years, although I do feel pretty old sometimes. Is it nap time yet? I could literally sleep my life away if that was an option.

I think everyone tries to walk into a new year with their head held up high, hoping for better things to happen. I see nothing wrong with a bit of positivity, the more the bloody merrier! Too many people complain about others trying to set goals they probably won't follow through, but the thought's there isn't it? Having a motivated and optimistic outlook on how you plan to do things is amazing, and if you're able to keep those thoughts around, perfect. I don't know where I'm going with this post at all, but sometimes it's good to let your mind run free through writing, and these are my simple thoughts coming into 2017.

I'm feeling quite good coming into this brand new year. I do see it as some sort of fresh start, being such a naturally pessimistic human I truly am trying to lift the negativity from myself. My creativity completely escaped me last year and it really did bring me down. Being such a lover of photography and art in general, it really did suck, felt a bit lost really. But hey ho, can only pick myself back up from these moments and come back even better, right?

Have any of you set goals for this year? Realistic or not, it's still great to have them.
I hope everyone is well, Happy New Year!

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Life Update

Well, it's been quite a while, hasn't it? I deserve a medal for most useless blogger ever. I'm really good at randomly taking off whenever I feel like it. I guess I have good reason to else I would never leave this wonderful world of blogging. It sucks missing out on everything like I have done recently, you only need to look away from blogging for a quick second and several things have happened. It's incredibly hard to keep up lately and I hate it. I can't say I'll ever have my focus truly on blogging, but i certainly do miss writing and i definitely miss the wonderful people i talk to on Twitter.

So? Life has been weird these past three months. For one, I ended my (nearly) 5-year relationship, that was a lot for my brain to handle. But it was something I needed to do, and if anyone's wondering... I'm a lot happier now, it just takes a while to adjust to being on your own, which of course has its positives and negatives, but I'll leave that for another time...

I also went to Spain with my parents, which was quite an experience but all good to get away from recent events. I managed to play a lot of Pokemon GO while I was there... Their variety of Pokemon was incredible, biggest nerd ever, I know. Apart from the lack of sleep it was incredibly refreshing to get away for a week, and i fucking LOVE flying. Just makes me want to start planning my next trip.

OH, and not to mention I finally got to witness Busted live... No big deal. Only waited probably half my life to see those three beautiful men and oh boy it was perfect... I screamed my heart out and got super drunk, it was a good fucking time.

Life hasn't been too crazy, it never is, but I kind of like that. I'm finally giving myself some time to be happy and it's nice. I have missed talking to everyone though, and I truly regret distancing myself like I have done, but shit happens eh? <3

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